I felt so lost that my mind was a complete blank. At that moment, i was almost tempted to tell her how i really feel. Gripping the handphone in my palms, i was contemplating about how to reply to the sms. What could i say? How will she react? Would she even care? A thousand thoughts went through my mind. So there in front of me was an opportunity to confess but, again i faltered and just replied a friendly message to her. She treats me so much like a friend, which made me wonder if insisting on being closer could kill off the contact.

I need not describe the pain i feel. Anybody would know how it feels like. Deep inside, i know that i did not make the wrong choice. So i guess the fault lies with me?

I need some place to unleash my misery but where?