I think I may be suffering from slight depression. Hmm...when you start to think that life and the people around you are not making u happy, will you slip into a dark hole? I guess so. Why is it that throughout recent years, I have this feeling that my position in the relations of all my closest friends is kinda wavering? Maybe I am paranoid but it does happen that when I sit down and think of who I can ask out to coffee or dinner for a chat some time, the names are few. I get frustrated when it happens. Besides my devilish angel, who's always by my side, there will still be times when she cannot be there. Could it just be a case of over-reliance on my friends?

The more I live and grow up with my fellow counterparts, the more amusing yet irritating at times I find humans to be. Even my devilish angel do commit certain acts that drive me up the wall sometimes but I don't show it of course. I smile when people blocked my way by stopping suddenly on the crowded walkway. Well, what do you expect me to do? Throw temper and screw the person? I would gladly wish to do that but it would not get me anywhere. At times I do dream of being in a position where I can teach humans to conduct themselves properly. I strongly feel that the most important human trait in this world is not friendliness or nice or generous but empathy! You can give a million dollars to charity but you would never know how much pain and difficulties the poor are experiencing if you lack a sense of empathy. But i guess the world is learning. Could EQ be the thing closest to measuring empathy?

I can vouch for the heavens that the most intolerable thing on earth is a human. Conflicts with others as well as oneself. When can I find a peace of mind...