At this point, I'm feeling quite frustrated with the state of my own life. As the world cup reaches the climax soon, I find my spending power very much depleted. I don't even gamble. That kind of feeling makes me wanna just stay home and isolate myself. Even playing my video games doesn't give me the pleasure I get on a normal day.

Could it just be a bad day?

Out of the blue, I received an email from John, my jc classmate who went to Michigan University last year. Glad to know he's doing well and that he's now in Japan doing a summer programme. Upon reading his email, i felt a really strong urge to get away from Singapore. Yet I can't. I do not have the finances to do so and it saddens me. Really it does.

I don't really know how to say this but despite being surrounded by friends and all, sometimes i still feel really really lonely inside.